- Downton Abbey owns my soul.
- How I Met Your Mother's return brought me much joy and excitement.
- The Playboy Club is immensely stupid.
- I seriously felt my blood boil at the office today. It was intense and unpleasant.
- People are really lucky that I didn't get up and just murder someone.
- I had an annoying headache all day and my boiling blood didn't help at all.
- I now know how it feels to unreasonably hate someone and I don't like it one bit.
- It's not even a love-hate situation. It's pure hate.
- I'll go to the hospital with mom tomorrow, just to accompany her. Nothing serious, it's just she doesn't want to go to the doctor alone anymore, I think she's getting older.
- But if there's something more serious that she's not telling me, then I probably won't think twice before cutting a bitch.
- Tell me where I can find pretty Downton Abbey icons.
It's almost 3am here and i came back from work just half an hour ago. Stayed at the office for 16 hours, worked for 8, but it was the wrong 8. The project i'm currently working on is so badly managed i want to puke.
Whatever, i am leaving this Friday and coming back on July 11th, so i'm fine. Today counts as a sacrifice for a good vacation.
But next time i will say no. This post is a reminder.
Also, i love Game of Thrones. That is a fact.
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» I've bought the plane tickets for our vacation next month and guess what, mom immediately asked me if we can change the date on her return ticket. NO MOM, WE CAN'T, THEY WERE THE CHEAPEST DEAL TICKETS I COULD FIND AND YOU CAN'T CHANGE IT. Every.single.time I do something regarding planning or buying for something we'll do together, she does this. She always has some other plans that will complicate the already made plan which stresses me out more that I can handle.
» My right arm is aching. I know it's stress related so I'm trying to relax, but since I don't know what's stressing me out this much, I fail. I am hopelessly trying to find a comfortable position to sit, but nothing works. Plus I woke up with a headache today so I'm hoping the painkiller I took a few minutes ago will solve both of my physical problems.
» Watched Cougar Town season finale last night and it was AMAZING. ( Couple of spoilery stuff... )
» The woman in the next office is talking too loudly. I am this close to barging in there and choking her.
» Happy Endings is awesome! Mostly Eliza Coupe is awesome than any other. The only thing that left me sad about the end of Scrubs was her absence on my screen, but now I can be happy again.
» Mom asked me if I wanted to extend my vacation to 2 weeks and I said no, because I seriously cannot handle a 2 week long family vacation, but I told her I can't take 2 consecutive weeks off from work. I love them all, but we're not that compatible when we are kept in a strange place too long. No, no, no and no.
» I wish people would just let me be today, but then I get sad because I get too lonely. I can never win. I want to punch something, but instead, I will use these gifs to express my current emotional status.
I had my long awaited ultrasound today and guess what, THE STONE IS STILL IN THE EXACT SAME PLACE!
My exact reaction when the doctor showed me the god damned stone:
On the brighter side, it seems like it's not gonna move anytime soon and it got smaller somehow. I will continue drinking all sorts of juices and herbal teas to make it go away. AT LEAST IT DOESN'T HURT. But the idea of it still being there makes me uncomfortable. Dad told me to forget about it, so I'll try... until next time it hurts like a bitch and I have to be tied to the bed. Yes. Case closed. Dismissed. Overruled. Whatever.
SO YES, I HAVE BEEN WATCHING THE GOOD WIFE! IT IS GOOOOOOOOOD. Very very good. I'm still on Season 1, because it takes forever to finish the episodes! FEELS LIKE 2 HOURS INSTEAD OF 42 MINUTES! WHAT'S UP WITH THAT? Not that I'm complaining, but still! WEIRD!
And Vampire Diaries is back, wohoo! Yesterday's episode was pretty good, but not "HOLY SHIT" worthy.
On a completely unrelated note: I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE. I've been so lazy this past MONTH, it's insane. It's like I am out of writing juice. My brain can't focus on one idea and keep going with it and it's driving me crazy. To be honest it's mostly making me sad, but crazy part is still in there.
So yeah, I might just suck it up and try to write something, anything for the sake of writing, because I feel like if I stop writing, I have nothing better to do in life. Sounds a little depressed, doesn't it? Yeah, you got it.
Damn, I was so hopeful, but then I checked the status:
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I hope at least I can post this...
Feeling a lot better. I haven't had any pain all week. Either I passed the stone earlier or it's still hiding somewhere inside my body which is pretty scary. I'll be having another ultrasound tomorrow and I'll take the day off from work, wohoo! Hopefully the doctor will give me the good news *fingers crossed*
I AM WATCHING THE GOOD WIFE. aftersix, I AM ADDICTED! It's so good!
I haven't slept well last night. Several stuff might have screwed up my sleep, for instance:
- My brother leaving me all alone in the house and spending the night with his girlfriend although I asked him several times not to do that and even told him he could invite his girlfriend over. ( We're living in a duplex apartment for god's sake, you have enough privacy, why can't he just be nice and not leave me alone? )
- Watching The Middle before going to bed and not being able to stop watching even though it was way past midnight, hence not being able to wake up like a regular human being at 7:30am. ( The Middle is awesome though! )
- Finally falling asleep but forgetting to turn off the laptop so it played and played and played the same episode of Silk all night which kinda gave me weird dreams. I think I subconsciously watched the whole thing, I am not sure. British accent is probably carved in my brain forever.
But it's okay. I had coffee and a pretty nice lunch and I'm halfway through the test results. Hoping to finish this result set today and start another hugeass one on Monday. Oh Monday, your early level of obnoxiousness is admirable.
Yeah, I'm done. Gotta go back to work. I might be able to accomplish more stuff now that most of the office is out at lunch and my phone has never been this quiet since... last year.
After several facepalms later, she dragged me to a fitness center (in which I have a 6 month membership ((A GIFT FROM MY UNCLE THAT APPARENTLY KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT ME)) that was about to expire in February ((THANK GOD!)) and I haven't even been there once) After learning how little time left on the membership (oh my god, horror... NOT) she forced me to go with her until Feb. I couldn't say anything because fitness centers intimidate me! I'm going tomorrow MORNING to get my measurements done and receive my program for the week. "WHAT THE FUCK!!!!11!??" I said to myself while leaving the center, but too late. The appointment is at 10 am for tomorrow. The lady who arranged the stuff has the same name with me, Dilek, and was pretty cute with everything SO IT INTIMIDATED ME EVEN MORE. GOD, I HATE IT. I can't even...
I know some of you love working out, but it's just not for me. I get bored and don't see the point, really. Although, if I really have to, I saw a Latin dance class at noon, MAYBE I can entertain myself with that. I don't know...
Whatever. I bought something, let me show you with crappy photos.
( Forgive my retarded personality while taking these photos. They're really bad. )
Weird day was weird. I'm doing this fitness center thing for my mom. When February comes, I'm out. I have better things to do in that time frame... like, watching TV and writing? Yeah. Lame stuff, but MY STUFF.
Coming back to work after 9 days of doing pretty much nothing is like getting punched in the face. Also, waking up with a headache was just the cherry on top of all this. My head is still buzzing in a very unpleasant way.
I've spent this long holiday with writing, writing and more writing which was epic and a lot of fun! I had the best performance rate in the last two days, so you can say I finished it with a high note.
Seriously though, I don't want to work at all. I have no idea what I was doing before the holiday, therefore it feels impossible to go back. There are 3894753489 emails in my inbox and even looking at the subject lines is making me dizzy.
I shall postpone doing stuff as much as I can today. I'll be out of the office tomorrow and the next 2 days for an external project deployment which sounds terrible at the moment, but considering everything sounds terrible on a Monday after a 9-day holiday, I still have hope.
I want to believe.
( Lots of random and pointless rant about work. I'm kind of depressed. )
Feel free to ignore me.
Eta: I'm just going to leave this here;
>> Working is frustrating, but re-doing someone else's crappy work is even more rage inducing.
>> LJ is in depression. My flist is full of emotional/confused/ranty/depressed entries. I love you guys, don't be sad ♥
>> Mondays should be included in the weekend. Starting the week from Tuesday makes a HUGE difference, believe me.
>> Dark and rainy weather is finally taking its toll on me. I am constantly sleepy, it's not good. I think it's some kind of a seasonal fatigue. I don't like it at all.
>> When I'm at work I want to do all sorts of other stuff, like read, write, do web design, wash the dishes, shop etc. But when I go home I find myself in bed, with my laptop, watching TV shows. I feel like my life is being wasted, but it doesn't bother me.
>> I decided that I'm too selfish to have a romantic relationship. I keep making up scenarios in my head and when it comes to deciding between my significant other and myself, I always chose myself. I guess you need to actually "fall in love" to get over your selfishness.
>> I really want to go home.
I'm not planning on doing anything special for the occasion since it's on Sunday and I hate doing stuff on Sunday, but I'm going out with couple of friends tomorrow. We'll just chill and eat sweets and hang out ~~ Good times...
I can't wait for this day to be over so I can go home, take a shower, watch Vampire Diaries (and Nikita) THEN I SHALL WRITE! I won't be able write as much as I want this weekend, I feel it. On top of it, next weekend there's a wedding and our house will be full of guests. No writing at that time either. So tonight's the night. I should at least finish 2 chapters to cover for next weekend's "planned unproductiveness".
Lately, when I look around all I can see is enagaged people. Wtf. I'm kind of depressed. I'm single and probably will be single in the near future and most of my friends -- even the ones who said they'd never get married -- are getting serious with their boyfriend/girlfriends. Meeting with parents, enagement rings, promise rings, etc. etc. And my long-time-single cousin is getting married next weekend. What the F, big time!
The thing I'm dreading the most about that wedding is this question: "So Dilek, when are we going to see your boyfriend?" Urgh, I hate it. I don't have a boyfriend and honestly if there's a store where you can buy one, just gimme the address and I'll gladly pay for it. Yeah, I admit, I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO MEET THIS ONE PERSON I'LL SPEND MY ENTIRE LIFE WITH. Can't he just come by my house and knock the door? I promise I'll fall in love in first sight! I can do that! I just need him to find me. Pathetic. I know.
Yeah whatever. This post wasn't intended to be about my woes of being single. I shall put an end to this and go back to work.
11:11 *makes a wish*
7 more work hours to go...
I hate my hair today as well. It's my fault, really. I thought I could fix it when I woke up, but felt so lazy and tired, so I didn't.
Opera browser doesn't work properly on my work computer, so I had to switch to Firefox and I'm too lazy to install add-ons to have the awesome features I readily have on Opera. But I gotta admit, it's a lot faster than Opera. But then again ADD-ONS. I don't want. Too much work. But if you recommend me some, I'll glady check 'em out and make it pretty BECAUSE I HAVE NOTHING TO DO TODAY.
I tried changing my layout, because honestly, I couldn't read a thing! After going through almost 20 different css codes, I ended up with a very old one I've already used for a century. I like it. Readable, clean, simple.
I AM SO HIGH MAINTENANCE TODAY.
I saw Parker (from Leverage) in my dream. We were running away from something, don't remember what. There was a pool and I was wearing a hideous black dress whereas Parker was wearing a mini dress completely made of black lace. Wtf. It was almost a sex dream. It even involved a really small elevator. I'm having almost-sex-dreams about Parker. AWESOME!
Now you know how weird I am today, cheers!