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[thelake]

It's been really long since I've made a decent update, so I will categorize the stuff on my mind and let you all know how my life is going. I know you're interested (even though it's not going to be as exciting as I'm hoping it would be).

Let's go;

REAL LIFE:

My life lately consists of only 2 things:
1. Heat which is trying to kill me everyday. I'm still alive (suprisingly!), but I'm afraid one of these days I'll just jump out of a window and break my head, BECAUSE IT'S JUST TOO HOT INSIDE AND I CAN'T SLEEP BECAUSE OF IT.

I considered sleeping in the room with the AC, but a) there's no bed, but two huge sofas in the room b) they're all facing the AC which can easily make me sick the next day, so NO. I've been sleeping with my fan on, but since all it does is to turn the hot and humid air in the room, it's not as efficient as the AC. But it's okay. I'm considerably less sticky in the mornings.

2. Work which is the biggest source of stress at the moment. I'm getting weekly assignments on a project and I'm not the only one working on that project, but no matter what I tell myself I stress like a crazy person once I get the assignment list. My work is not difficult (well, not anymore since I've learned the software pretty well by now), but it's hella tedious. My eyes are almost always red and dry by the end of the day, because I keep looking at the screen and trying to find errors in the SQL code, debug the shit out of reports, try to understand the meaning of life, etc.

I don't know when things will slow down. I'm guessing NEVER, but I should really learn not to stress over work. I could never understand working people who have all sorts of illnesses because of stress in the past, but NOW I KNOW.

So overall; heat and work make me cranky. I really don't want to be upset, but I am :( I'm always tired during the week and can't get quality sleep time because of the heat and then comes the weekend AND I AM STILL TIRED, but this time I have time to lay around. I don't want to sleep and waste my time on the weekends, because contrary to popular belief, I love working on my other stuff (like novels and websites!) during the weekend. BUT THIS HEAT AND WORK SCHEDULE KILLS ME DEAD.

WRITING:

I've written 2 chapters worth of stuff 2 weeks ago >=/
I want to write more. I want to finish my current story and move on to the next one until I have nothing waiting in the queue of my mind. It's almost impossible, but I have hope. One day I'm going to look at my writing folder and see only one word document that is incomplete. ONE DAY IT'LL HAPPEN GUYS, I KNOW IT!

FAMILY:

My family literally abandoned me this weekend. I hate staying alone in the house. I might have mentioned it before, our house is a big one (completely normal for 4 people), but when I'm alone it's like a freaking haunted castle D: I used to be so good at staying alone at night (hell I even stayed at a one bedroom apartment where the street door didn't even close properly), but lately I'm the biggest coward. I'm 25 ffs, but dark rooms still make me uncomfortable.

So what did I do? I turned on the lights in the stairway, kept my desk lamp open (the room is next to my bedroom) so the hallway was also lit, took my laptop with me to the bed and slept to the sound of a random movie every night. My sleep quality grade is F--

D:

Thank god mom's coming back tonight. Oh and since she was away, I realized how rusty I am with cooking. Rusty isn't the right word, I should have said lazy as a panda. Yeah. I considered chewing the bamboo trees outside instead of cooking stuff for myself. I ended up with toast, milk and some fruit. Not bad.

TV:

Aside from my regular summer shows (True Blood, Drop Dead Diva and WEEDS!!) I tried watching Covert Affairs. It didn't click with me. I really like both leading actors, but it feels so artificial to me, so I gave up after 4 and a half episodes. I think I'm still stuck at the Alias phase.

READING:

I'm still reading Harry Potter. Yeah, I know. BUT THOSE BOOKS ARE HUGE! I've recently finished The Goblet of Fire and I still couldn't pass the first few chapters of The Order of the Phoenix. It's going to take me a lot longer to go through that one big ass novel. I feel like sitting down and reading a book is a waste of time compared to writing one, but since I CAN'T DO THAT EITHER it makes me sad. And mad. I'm smad.

FRIENDS:

I don't want to go out because it's too hot. Therefore I don't call anyone and nobody calls me either.

OTHER STUFF:

I'm constantly in a "meh" mood. I want to feel better. As soon as the weather gets better--AND BY "BETTER" I MEAN "COLDER"--I'll be fine, but that particular period of time seems so far away at this point. I'm annoyed.

Yup, this is it. My mind feels a lot organized at the moment, thanks for listening.

Comments

[chicaintcheap.livejournal.com]

You and I are the same way about being left home alone D: I was on my own this past weekend and I swear, every time I heard a tiny noise in the house, I would PREPARE TO DIE lolol. And I can't cook for myself either, am far too lazy .-. man, imagine the two of us in a house on our own for a night. We would just lock ourselves up, leave all the lights on, and starve to death :p

[thelake.livejournal.com]

I heard a tiny noise in the house, I would PREPARE TO DIE

Oh god so much yes. I was like the Paranoid Parrot come alive this weekend.

ROFL! WORST.ROOMMATES.EVER.

We'd have crazy fun during the day though >:)

[chicaintcheap.livejournal.com]

Oh yes we would :D

[x-immortal.livejournal.com]

Alias izlemiş olanlar genelde Covert Affairs'e pek ısınamıyorlar zaten. Hatta diziye laf atanlar falan da var. (ki beklenen bir hareket) ;))

[thelake.livejournal.com]

Fandomdan haberlerrrr =)) Ben de merak ediyordum Aliasçılar ne yapmış diye. Gerçi koyu Aliasçı olup CA'yı da seven bir arkadaşım var. Onu da spy delisi olarak kategorilendirelim de bari kaideyi bozmasın.

[x-immortal.livejournal.com]

tumblr de gördüm bende Alias gibi olamaz bilmemne diye fotolar yapmışlardı :/

Bir ben olamadım Aliasçı. Ben de o diziye ısınamıyorum :S

[x-immortal.livejournal.com]

bu arada Covert da Chris elinde ışıklı bir aletle yürüyor ya CIA içindeyken. Onun kör bir adama nasıl bir yararı olduğunu biliyor musun? nette gezindim ama bulamadım nedir o alet ya da kullanana nasıl yol mu gösteriyor artık ne yapıyor?

[thelake.livejournal.com]

Ben onun yüzeydeki engebelere göre titreşim yolladığını düşünüyorum. Lazerin geçirgenliğine göre...

[x-immortal.livejournal.com]

hımm.. possible..

[nowgold.livejournal.com]

awww i didn't realise it was still hot over there :( fail.

i hope it cools down soooooon.

:D HARRY.

BLERGH. Work sucks.

[thelake.livejournal.com]

How I wish I could be in your country right now *sighhh*

[katayla.livejournal.com]

I'm the same way about being alone at home! I've lived alone before, but now it's like everything is scary! (And cooking, yeah, is just like impossible.)

I think reading is an essential part of writing, though! Not at all a waste of time.

Anyway, hope work calms down and good to hear from you! I feel like we haven't talked in a while.

[thelake.livejournal.com]

I really don't know how I did it back then!

It is, it is, I know. It's just.. All I've been doing creatively lately is READING. I want to write, too.

I'm hoping today will be calmer, I didn't receive any assignments yesterday *crosses fingers* And yes, we haven't :( I should redeem this situation because you've been updating a lot and I've read all of them, just didn't find the time to comment properly. Oh life...

[katayla.livejournal.com]

But I think longer periods of reading can be good in the long run? I might have to do that myself because, ugh, I can't figure out some stuff about my story/might have to abandon it.

No worries! I know that's how it goes sometimes. Just don't forget about me. ;)

[glenien.livejournal.com]

=))))) I kinda love your brain, srsly.

[thelake.livejournal.com]

My brain is totally awesome.