drained.

[thelake]

I hate driving. Driving is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and I don't like it. I just want this driving exam to be over and no matter what the result is, I won't be driving again anytime soon (maybe never.) I still suck at certain stuff, so I have to take a break from work on Thursday and go to a final lesson (not sure if it's going to make any difference, but whatever.)

I'm drained. Literally drained. These past two weeks were very hard on me and I realized it just now: driving, trainings, projects, my bff's hospital visits, bla bla bla... Also my dad was sick (nothing serious, balance problem related to the middle ear so he couldn't sleep for 3 days and generally felt like crap.) and I was worried about him, but I ended up yelling at him today in the car, because I was so tired and now I feel like shit about it, and I feel like crying, but I don't want to, because if I do, I'll have a headache and that'll just suck, so I won't cry.

I'm downloading Merlin, maybe it'll cheer me up. Just one of those days...

ETA: Oh yes, Merlin indeed cheered me up ♥ But I still hopelessly wish for more Morgana...

Comments

[0summer-night0.livejournal.com]

:( *hugs* Life goes always hard on us but it sometimes seems like "Hey, I have changed!I am better now." At least you work.Look at me, I have to study and study and solving problems which never exist!But I am sure it is going to be okay, it always is.

My mom even has a driver's licence but she refuses to drive.Because she hates the traffic jam in Istanbul and also pshyco people who shouldn't be met in the traffic.

I am sorry for your dad, ear problem is a terrible thing!!Its pain is, omg..But do not blame yourself for that, everyone can be stressed and angry *hugs again* You wouldn't want to see me when I am angry :)

[thelake.livejournal.com]

I really don't want to take it out on family, but they just happened to be there and my dad was trying to be nice and loving... I'm still bitter about it, I'm angry with myself, but whatever...

Oh I won't be driving in Istanbul (as long as I don't absolutely have to) even though I have a license! I'm not that crazy!