I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done

[thelake]

★ I attempted to update here several times in these past weeks, but always felt like I didn't have anything substantial to say. Still feel like it, but whatever. All my f-list is updating and I'm afraid people will forget I exist and defriend me or something...

★ Been listening to Adele's Hiding My Heart for a couple of days and it's not doing me any good. I'm a bit disappointed in myself on the heart and feelings department and I've been feeling a little lonely for a while, so listening to Adele is like going on a suicidal mission willingly.

★ Another disappointment I had this week was the Bones season finale. Well, I've been watching the show for Angela and Hodgins anyway, but still, what a cop out. I know most of you are slightly happier than me, but come on guys, 6 freaking years and then BAM they're having a kid. I would have liked to see them kissing/making love/being close to each other without a dream sequence or a flashback. Brennan is a smart woman. She wouldn't just forget to have protected sex, so this was probably planned in her head...

I don't know. The time jump was really weird, too. They shared a bed and now ~5 weeks have passed and suddenly THEY ARE HAVING A BABY. I'm not contemplating on the science part of things, but I feel betrayed. 6 years worth of UST of course can lead to a baby, but for the sake of being an awesome TV show, show us something physical! Yes, I am shallow like that. I need it to be canon. I need to have actual visions of them being together before I envision them as parents.

Some say it's better this way, because nothing could live up to the expectation, but I don't agree. Look at Angela and Hodgins. THEY WERE ALMOST MARRIED AND THEN THEY BROKE UP AND SPENT AN ENTIRE SEASON APART AND THEN THEY GOT MARRIED AGAIN IN JAIL AND NOW THEY HAD THEIR AWESOME HEALTHY BABY BOY AND IT WAS EVEN MORE AMAZING THAN ALL MY EXPECTATIONS. Why can't the actual couple of the show be more like Angela and Hodgins? I'll keep watching though. I need to see where they take it from here, but I am very disappointed nonetheless.

★ How awesome is Game of Thrones? I love how it's critically acclaimed and epic and all that jazz. Of course it is, because it's not tv, it's HBO.

★ Remember the time I told you I was gonna start looking for another job? Hah. I'm doing NOTHING about it. Well, for my defense, there have been some major organizational changes in the company and now our department is a research and development unit which is awesome and means more money, so I'm hoping to get a piece of that pie.

★ Speaking of pie, I've gained so much weight it's insane. A coworker asked me if I gained weight before she said good morning (rude much?), so I take it as an emergency and start dieting. I'm not gonna starve myself, but I am also aware that I have been eating A LOT OF junk food and pastries lately. I quit. And I gotta start swimming. Summer is here. As soon as they put the sunbeds by the pool, I am there. I already have a natural lifesaver around my belly from eating too much cake. HA HA HA, not funny at all. I hate it. It feels like I have passed my prime and slowly falling into a pit of belly fat and boring days. I'm not obsessed with physical appearance, but I remember myself being all thin, fit and energetic and my current situation feels like shit to be honest. I need to change my ways and losing some of this weight will surely make me feel a bit better. Hopefully.

★ I believe I have sufficiently made your day a little bit more depressing, so mission accomplished. See you at my next post which will probably happen at a distant time in the future.

Comments

[fauxkaren.livejournal.com]

Game of Thrones is so amazing. Have you seen episode 7 yet?

[thelake.livejournal.com]

But then I'm not even sure if there's a way to download since it was just available online...

[fauxkaren.livejournal.com]

Oh it's available. Someone ripped it from the online stream, so the quality is not the best, but it got the job done. It's a really good episode too! Have you read the books? Because it's getting to some of the more intense parts of the book, so yeah. Good episode.

[thelake.livejournal.com]

I've read the detailed summaries of the books so I know what's coming up next ;__;

[chicaintcheap.livejournal.com]

thanks for posting this comment, otherwise I never would've known it was up! @_@

[outcomewolves.livejournal.com]

I definitely know how you feel about not posting, but you've inspired me to finally make a post! Which I will do...eventually.

Good luck with the weight loss! It has taken me awhile but I'm near my goal weight, and my secret for the stubborn belly pounds has been hula hooping. Its all the benefits of sit ups, but you don't have to do them! Adios love handles & other ick!

[thelake.livejournal.com]

Yay! My depressive posts are useful after all!

I'm buying a hula hoop immediately. The only thing is I have to learn how to spin it lol. I fail so hard, but learning is workout too! Plus it's fun!!11! Best workout advice I have ever gotten in my entire life, I owe you ♥

[chicaintcheap.livejournal.com]

ah, your coworker is so rude :/ it's really none of her business what's going on with your body, but good luck nonetheless. I'm trying to lose weight again too because I gained back half of what I spent 3 months losing, ugh v_v

[thelake.livejournal.com]

I don't know why people feel the need to point out bad things they see on other people. Be polite and don't mention it if it doesn't need immediate attention like smudged make up!

I know how you feel ;__; Hopefully this time I will seriously stop eating junk and start eating actual food.

[katayla.livejournal.com]

Good to hear from you! :D

I haven't watched this week's Game of Thrones yet, but I've been really enjoying it!

And I haven't been looking for jobs either, booooo. But that does cool about your job! Research and development sounds awesome!

And good luck with your weight loss! I so know what you mean about feeling like you're past your prime. I know I'm still young, but . . .

[thelake.livejournal.com]

Yay, thanks! I've been really quiet for some time haven't I? I was mostly on Tumblr and my Turkish twitter account...

Good to hear! I haven't seen you talking about it that much, but it's really good!

I've never imagined myself being scared of turning 30, but I can see it now. Just 4 more years and I'll be officially middle aged or something... I used to call people at their 30s middle aged, hopefully the rules have changed while I was growing up!

[katayla.livejournal.com]

Well, start talking! ;) But yeah. I haven't been that talkative myself.

I think mostly I'm afraid I'll want to talk about book spoilers if I talk about Game of Thrones and I don't want to be that person who's constantly comparing things to the books and hinting at things! But yeah. I love how it feels like such a complete world.

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP. I'M TURNING 28 NEXT WEEK! IDK. It's not even that I'm freaked out as I feel like it's making me resigned? Like I'm too old to ever really get my life going. And rationally, I know that's not true, but . . . well, you know how it is. This isn't where I thought I'd be.

But, ha, yeah 30's isn't middle aged! Maybe late thirties, but I think it's more 40s.

[thelake.livejournal.com]

It's like I am always talking about the same thing! Work is boring, life is boring, why am i always slightly depressed, i am getting old, bla bla bla... ;__;

Just because I knew some people would want to talk about books, I went ahead and read all the detailed summaries of the series =)) I regret nothing, it's a lot more fun this way.

JKSDHGJKDFK I AM SORRY! Resigned is the right word, yes. It's never too old to get a life going, but I know what you mean. It's like "I'm almost 30, so what's the point, etc. etc." but it really is not true. We should remind that to ourselves more frequently. Ugh life, why are you so difficult to manage?

LOL! YAY! WE HAVE AT LEAST 10 MORE YEARS TO BE CONSIDERED MIDDLE AGED! REJOICE!

[katayla.livejournal.com]

I just feel uninteresting lately! Like, the only thing I can think to post about most days is the Mariners and that's interesting to ME, but not so much for my flist.

Well, good, then I won't worry about saying stuff about the books. :D But now don't spoil ME. I still need to read the last two! IDK. Sometimes I think it would've been fun to be unspoiled, but I feel like it would be hard to remain unspoiled, you know?

We should! I think I'm getting a little better at remembering that, just . . . not about DOING anything.

[endearest.livejournal.com]

I went both ways with the Bones finale, I was a bit sad but at the same time I fully believe we'll get a flashback. If we don't, however, I'm going to cut a bitch.